here's to you mom....

still trying to find my way in this crazy world. you would think at 29 i would have had it figured out by now. i'm feeling isolated lately. i'm lonely, bored, and tired of entertaining children.

i would like to run free and far! go to lunch with a friend or even, dare i say it, by myself! i want to go to the gym without it taking thirty minutes to get out the door! i want to see a movie IN the theater. i want to read one entire page of a book without interruption! does anyone else with small kids feel incredibly tied down? working around four different schedules is extremely exhausting! whew! who knew you could crawl out of bed five times a night to comfort a baby and two more times to bring a needy three year old back to their own bed and still function the next day? who knew you could get everyone in the house fed(including the dog) and not once realize you haven't fed yourself until dinner? who knew you could get through an entire eight hours of taking care of kids, while completing housework and immediately walk out the door to work a five hour shift serving coffee when running on only three hours of sleep? i often wonder how i got home, which isn't good, but i did it!

and for what?

my mother once told me, "being a mom is a thankless job." i'm now understanding what she meant.

two weeks ago after having one of those nights, followed by a long day, i get a text while at work from my husband, it says, "molly just projectile vomited all over me. could you please stop on your way home and get pedialyte and lysol."

i was up for a complete 36 hours holding buckets, changing sheets, disinfecting the house on top of the normal routine. when i finally crawled into bed the next night and thought of everything i had accomplished BY MYSELF, i found myself completely disappointed. where was my applause? where was my 'thank you'? where was my congratulations on getting through the day?

i was honestly waiting for a marching band to come parading through my room and give me one big HURRAH for all that i had done. instead, i got nothing but a pat on the back. which i also had to do myself. there is nothing like being a mom. it's the best thing i have ever done but also the most exhausting. i wouldn't trade this job for anything in the world but is it too much to ask for a little appreciation?

so, i raise my coffee cup to all the other moms who read this. here's to you, my friend! may your days be less chaotic than mine and on behalf of those you work so hard to keep safe and happy....THANK YOU! CONGRATS! WELL DONE! YOU ARE THE BEST!