The Sea and Me

I don't care for being land locked.

Deep in my heart I know I am meant to live by a large body of water somewhere. There's something exciting, scary, romantic, etc. about the ocean.

Depending on your own mood to start with, it can bring about a whole new outlook and set of feelings.

I love that.

I love being able to wake up each morning by the sea and feel something new.

I love that the waters change.


Is it windy, storming, high tide?

The waters change with each change of the weather.

That is me.

I change with the weather. I change with the moon.

I can be harsh and choppy or calm and inviting, all within hours.

I like not knowing. I live for the suprise of emotion.

It's been over three years since the last time I have sat near the ocean.

And when we are finally together again in August it will be as no time has passed.

It will not wonder where I have been.

It will not depress me with it's problems, nor will I do the same with mine.

I will simply sit and take in my fill of it's beauty.

dreams

I turn 27 next month. No, that's not old and i'm not complaining but it's got me thinking. There are so many things I've wanted to do in my life that I haven't and i'm wondering if i ever will at this point.



I want to go on safari in Africa.



Sip espresso at a cafe in Italy.



Drink a glass of wine at an outdoor bistro in France.



Gaze at the pyramids in Egypt.



Learn photography.



Own a pottery wheel.



Find a career....and so many others.



It seems now that my world is taking care of one child, planning for another and trying to stay ahead of the always impending financial debt that i won't be doing any of these things anytime soon.



I never understood why 'adults' said to enjoy your youth. Well, now I understand. Responsibility. On a brighter note I am a good wife and mother. I would never run away from the life I have created. But a vacation would be nice.

Toto, I've got a feeling we're not in Illinois anymore

My husband, daughter, and I have recently created a new chapter in our book of life. We have left the familiarity of Chicago and moved across our beautiful country to Phoenix, AZ. We moved here in October and over the past six months the initial excitment of owning our own home and exploring the new surroundings has almost completely worn off. I now know where everything important to me is, the grocery store, target, the fashion mall, local pizza place, a chinese restaraunt that delivers, and the liquor store. If my bank account was larger (i'm only working part time after the move to save on day care) I would venture out a little more, but alas, it's not and since i haven't created my million dollar idea yet i'm stuck entertaining myself and our two year old. Now that is an adventure all on it's own! Wish me luck!