still waiting....

i pretty sure i posted something on my everlasting feeling of waiting for something a very long while ago...and that wonderfully frustrating feeling is super persisitant because i still have it.

and i still don't know what it is i'm waiting for.

jesus?

a lottery win?

to be hit by falling space junk?

my husband to turn into Jonathan Rys Meyers(as King Henry of course), present me with a large diamond ring and call me sweetheart in a fantastic english accent?

nothing?

i could possibly be waiting for all these things to find me, but i think the bigger picture would require me to live in the moment. and since i am watching two extra kids this week and next(both toddlers) that is surely not going to happen.

i will live in the moment in two weeks.

so, i raise my fifth cup of coffee to you and say, "a toast to september 30th. may you get here quick."

i mentioned on an early post that i started and then forgot about my happiness project. the happiness project is a book by gretchen rubin. she started her project after realizing she was happy but could be happier. her book really got me thinking about my happiness and what it would take to get myself out of the comfortable protective bubble i have created and start exploring the options life has to offer me.

i did really good the first month. i included things that i could start doing immediately that would create routine and immediate results. i joined a gym and went every other day. i kept a food diary, sat in the sun, washed my pillow cases, took a vitamin, tried to drink more water and so on.

most everything i tried fell by the wayside, but i did keep a couple of new habits. i now wash my face every night before i get into bed. i know it takes 28 days to create a habit and was very diligent about making sure i completed this task every night. i have missed one night in over three months and my skin looks amazing. it branched out into finding a new skincare regime and i have never looked better. i also take a vitamin and an omega 3 everyday. this has reminded me to give my daughter her vitamins.

where was i going with this?

since i had already given up half way through last month i realized i did not look at this month's tasks at all. i unfortunately found that this month's tasks are related to something that has weighed heavily on my mind lately. money. i sometimes lay awake at night and dream of ways to make ends meet or even of winning the lottery just so i don't' have to think about it at all.

money.

money can buy happiness. it could most definitely buy mine right now.

money has a love/hate relationship in our house. my husband and i are both very bad with money. it burns holes in my husband's pockets and for me, well, if i have it, i don't worry about what i'm spending it on until it's gone. then i have buyer's remorse and bit of depression for not saving. so this month will hopefully put an end to that.

september: spend better/find ways to save. make a plan/budget. plan a modest splurge for all family members. find a way to save power. tackle a nagging task.

if you need me this month that is where i will be. the nagging task will be this months tasks in general. although i'm completely not looking forward to doing any of these, i know the outcome will be worth it. as usual, wish me luck!

september

september is officially upon us. the tempuratures have been near or over 100 degrees for over three months. i'm assured by the locals that the weather will start to cool down and that makes me pretty darn excited because i have a whole new wardrobe that can't be worn until it does. i have cleaned out my closet of all clothes that no longer fit or i haven't worn in years. the hope that i will lose the baby weight and fit into any of them is now gone. and i have to say, it's completely freeing.

i have decided to build upon my new collection of style by picking up pieces here and there. i have always been the type of person that waits until i have worn out my clothing and am then forced to spend hard earned cash to fill the empty spaces with large amounts of inexpensive clothing that never lasts or looks as good as i had thought. i will no longer look for the cheap way to decorate myself. instead, i have been choosing clothing for comfort, durability, and, of course, fashionability. is that even a word?

i have also most always chosen items that require a particular shoe or accessory. no more i say! i will choose pieces that can be worn together, otherwise i will never wear them. is it sad that it has taken well into my 20's to figure this out? you get what you pay for. in most everything. it's most definitely worth the extra money to buy quality products. they fit better, work better, and wear better. it just takes a little more planning and saving to accomplish this. or winning the lottery.